I wish my life was like that of the Doctors and Sick kids on TV. I would love t o have my life like Scrubs or The Red Band Society , they mainly have happy moments, the sad ones never last long. I wish I had my doctors telling me I am all better, that I will not be seeing them again after my stays. In all honesty I really wish I never had a transplant.
Since my liver died, due to a freak autoimmune disease I was born with, I have been forced to be an adult in a medical world. I am just a teen, all I want to do is worry about school, and boys, maybe a girl here and there. I get told how lucky I am, how selfish I am for not wanting this responsibility.
My mom pretty much blames me for here turning to drugs again. She left me when I needed her most, stole from me and says "Well if you did not stress me out all the time this wouldn't happen." She is the reason I was born with my illness.
My doctors have been giving me all these meds, and each one can raise my risks for cancers, heart failures, lowering my immune system, eat my bones away, kill my kidneys, and eat at my stomach lining. The very meds that keep me alive are killing me at he same time.
This last hospital stay I wen through nine IVs in twelve days. I was poked with needles at least twenty times, and my arms hurt all the time. My arms are bruised and you can see where my veins had blown open. I look like a druggie, with the crook of my arms riddled with needle marks. I feel like I am kicking from drugs, always sweating, shaking, sick or puking. I have troubles keeping water down...yet my doctors allowed me to go home. They said my liver numbers are amazing, and they do not want me in the hospital. If I am so amazing liver, or health wise, why do I feel so tired and sick all the time?